Today I had another one of my weekly cookouts - luckily the weather was nice.  Lots of Michael's friends came over and we chatted and talked.  I teared up a few times but for the most part I stayed upbeat and content. 

I remember seeing one of Michael's good friend at a restaurant a week ago on Saturday.  When he caught my eye he came right over and gave me a big hug and said, "I miss him so much".  I began to cry and he tried to comfort me.  I asked him to come to the cook out at…

Today as I read from "Healing After Loss" I was struck by how familiar the words were to me.  It talked about the emotional roller coaster of grief and how one minute your fine, the next, a flood of tears.  I am very much in that place of teetering between being strong in mind to falling apart.  It's not fun for my loved ones to watch this part of the grief journey yet I can't change it.

According to "Healing After Loss", we're not suppose to change it; this is what happens.  I just…

I read today's meditation from "Healing after Loss" about dreams and how we often wish to dream about our loved ones as a way of staying near and in touch.  Martha Whitmore Hickman shares a dream she had about her daughter, who died from injuries due to a fall.  In the dream her daughter was on a stretcher being carried by two men who brought her up to where Martha was waiting.  Told she was told her daughter was going to be okay.  Below Martha was her family looking up and waiting for her…

"Healing After Loss" gives an interesting perspective on the unknown. It is far better to accept that our understanding of beyond life is limited.  Relish in the stories told of faith and intuition and most importantly.......wait and see for yourself!! Why try to have all the answers.  Don't stand so close for you will only learn a very small piece about life and what God has in store for us.  Step back and accept that though our questions are unanswerable, the real question is one of…