Im sorry I didn't see this earlier ... thank you Donald for helping your mom.. many don't do that.. my sisters and I had a horrible fight when dad was dying because nobody wanted to take the responsibility to care for him at home or even to oversee his care by health care workers... I lived over 600 miles from them all... and dad... and was taking care of two totally disabled young men in my home... my adopted sons... so I know its very hard to take care of someone like you did for your mom... after my youngest son suddenly died unexpectedly in 2013 I was so totally lost for a long time.. he was my responsibility more than his brother and all of a sudden he wasn't there any more and I felt so empty and devastated without him.. I still do... so I know you must be going through some dark times right now... I pray somehow your mom will reach out to you to let you know she is alive with God... my son Brandon.. or God.. or both... has/have sent us MANY signs that he is alive still.... all of them came unexpectedly and many at 'special' times like the night of my birthday... some people insist all the things that happened since he died are coincidences, but there are just too many... and so perfectly 'Brandon' that I don't think they are just coincidences... I believe God wants us to KNOW that our son ... and your mom... and my mom and dad, and best friends and grandchildren are also alive with Him and that they are still with us in new ways we don't understand fully ... I pray for peace for you... you are a GOOD son...