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About Me:: I have been disabled for years with fibromyalgia & arthritis and only way I can walk is due to my morphine pump. I have a daughter who was younger than my son.

About my Loss:: First I need to let you all know that I feel my family has been cursed for so many years. My mom lost her first son due to an accidental shooting then he lost his first some shortly after birth, then my sister lost her first son about 15 yrs. ago. And on June 25,2013 my son was sitting with a friend having a beer when he closed his eye. His friend thought he was taking a power nap until he did not reply to him shaking him. He stopped breathing at 12:24 am in PA and I got the call at 1 am in GA. I have been waiting for 15 yrs.for that call but lost it when I got that call. My son had called me on the Thursday before because he forgot my birthday. They said he had pneumonia in right lung and bleeding around stomach, intestine & esophagus areas. He died because he mixed alcohol with prescription med. He was only 36 and turned 37 on 8/ 11/13. The lord has given him to me and kept him safe all these years even though he should have passed so many times before. All I do is cry, and rock back & forth all day. I do not get out of my p js. I want to die. I do have a daughter & 4 grandchildren that she has given me. But KC was my first and we have always been so close. I do not want to go on without him. I must have failed him along the way. He was a free spirit all his life and the last few years he lived from one place to another and even out in the wood. Was I too hard on him over the years when he was fighting the demon that had a hold of him. The demon was also called drugs.