sorry for you loss cindi i lost my moms and brother a year a part a year ago and its very hard burying feeling doesnt help me i feel like a kid whos mother droped him off and just never came back and my borther and i was close working on my grief is a full time job 

Dear Cindi

 I am so sorry for you r loss. I have been trying to send you a message on your memory garden blog but keep having technical difficulties!! it was 18 months this past Sat that my son left us. The family just does not, CAN NOT understand, ONly when you lose a child can you fully grasp the overwhelming grief. Today it feels like it happened yesterday.Now they all expect me to be back in the groove, I need to find a job and don't have the mojo. I need to go back east and visit my mom and I get so anxious because I know I have to keep "the mask" on and it's so hard. I also have a memory garden for my son and find some peace in caring for it and doing other gardening. It helps me feel close to God and my son.Just keep caring for that garden and I know your son will be there with you. Your sister may not be able to express her own grief. It's a place most folks don't want to go. Sending you lots of love and prayers.