I know.. I miss my brother as well. It is hard and especially hard on his children. I lost my mother to cancer when I was twelve and my mother was only 39.

I was very close to my brother. My dad had died of kidney cancer a few years before my brother, so my brother was the rock of our family. Then when he died, I never felt more alone than at that time.

I don't mean to come across as someone who lacks sensitivity, because I know what you are going through, but try to be strong (at your own time, when you are ready) for your nephews and continue to fill their lives with memories of their dad. As time goes on

place your energy from being sad into a positive outcome for others. When I help others through their trying times, I feel better.

I know the darkness and emptiness you have right now. It is something we all go through at different levels. We are all need to grieve. Take whatever time frame you need...

I care and I am here for you!!

I can't believe your brother was same age as mine!!

Take care.

Mary

Dear Arielle,

I am deeply sorry for the loss of your brother.  I, too lost my only brother to cancer in 2000. It was a hard fought battle. I miss him every day. I know the heartache and pain. I know the anger you speak of. Grief is difficult and there are no words to take it away. You have to learn to cope. You have to balance the sad with everyday living. Your brother would not want you to be sad. He would want you to live. Just because you live on doesn't mean you have forgotten him. Always remember the love you have shared through out the years. Remember, you are always connected..forever. He watches over you and listens to your prayers. Live on for him..I always feel like I want to live strong and courageous the life that my brother could not. My brother was  only 41 years old when he died. I myself cannot feel bad for me..he is the one who had the difficult life. I live on for him, I honor and remember him always. I am sad--don't get me wrong, I just don't let the sad rule my life.

please let me know if you need anything else.

God bless and take care.

Mary E