Nicole
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I recently lost my husband over 3,months back in September 25th. It's been really rough on me. My husband has been sick since 1999 with diabetes and hypertension. In 2008 his kidneys began to fail and in 2010 he was on dialysis. He has been in and out the hospital fighting life threatening infections and was on 3 different diets, it was hard to adjust but it was doctor's order. As the years went by he became much sicker and no matter his he tried to make me believe he was ok his body told me otherwise. He was admitted in the hospital September 10th while he was at dialysis when I got the call he was having complications blacking out and such. He was doing fine was was ready to come home any day. On the 23rd he went into cardiac arrest twice and had to be put on a ventilator so he could breathe, I was so distraught seeing him in that condition I didn't wanna come to terms I was losing my husband. Friday September 25th I get a call from the hospital that there need to be a family conference concerning my husband. I didn't know what to expect so I immediately left work to be with him. When I get there I'm told that he wasn't showing no brain activities or very little and even if he survived he wouldn't be the same. My world was crush when his family wanted to make the decision to take him off the vendelator and let him go. In all the while I'm thinking "how could you do this?!? What if he's still in there somewhere?" I couldn't believe I was saying goodbye to my husband, my partner and best friend. He was only 43. He lived 4 hours after taking him off. I wanted to switch places with him so bad, but I understand his body was giving out, but he fought so hard to stay with me. I'm still haunted and tourn by this. I lost everything after his death. I mean how am I suppose to start over after 20 years of sharing my life with someone. I don't know how I will recover watching the man I love take his last breath. I killed me inside and I'm still praying I'm strong enough to make it on my own like he wanted me to be.
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