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Hello everyone, my name is Brittany. I am new to this and not quiet sure how this works. My therapist pointed me in this direction so i thought i would give it a try. I am 24 years old from…Continue
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Hello All-I am a new widow as my husband passed away April 21, 2018 at the age of 49. He suffered a heart attack and had no previous history of any heart conditions nor does it run in his family. I…Continue
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Hi. My name is Cristal. I lost the love of my life on July 2nd. He had leukemia and had no idea. I begged him to see a doctor in the months prior to his death but he would not do it. He also suffered…Continue
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Hi Everyone, My name is Carlyn, and I live in the Ft. Lauderdale area. I joined this site because a very dear friend of mine was killed in a hit-and-run accident in May. My friend Rick, whom I called…Continue
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Started by Carlyn Jorgensen Aug 28, 2017.
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I read in other posts but I share because this exactly how I feel since may 2011 when I lost my wonderful sister and soulmate. I do not know how to have life without her... There are times I had no little ones or my parents so that I could sleep and no wake up.... just sleep for ever.. I would not do anything but every day is a struggle. still raw and often getting harder as I see all other moving on and I am left looking at her beautiful pictures wishing she could call me like she did...to have our times...I wish I head told her more more often how much she is too me... I know I should be getting hope and some happiness from my little ones but I look at them and feel my heart tearing in a million pieces because they will never know how much she loved them.. too young... their memories will fade ... she was the best sister I could have..
Lately I can't stop worrying that I could be destined to die early as well and then our baby girl would be left without either of her parents... and if not that then I could be destined to lose her as well... We never know when tragedy will strike and I am terrified of that happening. I want nothing more than to be with Chris again but I could never leave our baby girl... and I could not survive if I lost her...
Thanks.
Kali, I don't think that, that's keeping you from healing because I have accepted that my mom is never coming back, do I like it, definitely not, but it has been accepted and I'm not doing great at all, my depression and anxiety is severely bad, not to mention that I have a lot of flashbacks with it and lack of sleep. Just because you accept something, doesn't mean it's perfect. You are just going through the grieving process and I hear that the first year or two is always hard! Thoughts and prayers are with you and Kitty..trust me, I'm angry too!
Kevin has been gone since January and I still don't want to believe it. I call Katie, his fiancee', and tell to look behind all the doors cuz you know how he likes to play jokes on people. I just want to scream at people to STOP! Quit saying that! There is no way he is dead! I keep saying "Kevin is" not Kevin was". It is just BS. I already lost Craig in 1990, why again? Why another son? How am I going to keep my other 4 boys safe? How am I going to keep my grandchildren safe? How am I going to get them through this pain of losing their friend/brother? How is it fair that 6 yr old Preston has to go through life without his best friend, his dad? Why did my youngest son have to witness both deaths? There is no hell because hell is right here on earth.
oh my but i am angry.
I know very well that Chris is gone and not coming back... but a part of me won't accept it. Part of me keeps holding on to the idea that he will come back someday... I feel like this is holding me back from healing... He isn't my fiance anymore because we can never get married..
i hav thm days 2 a buyten
Jeeze, I am still having such a hard time. It is in cycles. Some days or weeks are ok, then suddenly it feels as if it just happened. Still dealing with anxiety. That is very unpredictable too. Right now I just need some relief so I can do things and try to experience some fun. I haven't felt that for too long.
i try tarking to my dads fotos i no 1 time i woz tarking to fell off the tabel and another tim his foto fell off the wall wen i woz arguing with my older sister whos my harf sister i thnk it woz abot she wanted me to throw sum of my dads thngs out and i wont do that
Craig, my 9 yr old son, died 22 years ago, May 24, 1990. From that tragedy, I know the time comes when the despair becomes less and less and the easy breathing becomes more and more. Part of what I have been feeling is guilt that I let go of Craig as much as I did. That just compounds the grief of losing Kevin this last January. I am more angry this time because there is a 'this time'. Because I know from experience what I am going through is 'normal' and that while the pain will never go away, it will lessen. No mom or dad should ever have to feel this pain in the first place, let alone twice. I am just angry.
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