Hello!  My name is Terrie

My daughter Candance was recently murdered in her home in TX.

I go through days when I can function normally, but days where I can do nothing but think of Candance and her death.

The police dont have a suspect, and can tell me very little about what they know.

It has been a month now since Candance died, and I received a call about a friend of mine in FL who committed suicide.

Its sad, I feel so sorry for her family......but feel guilty because the pain I feel is not for their loss but for mine.  I feel lost most of the time, as if I were in a bad dream.  Is this normal? 

Today I felt overloaded, I don't want to deal with the simplest tasks like grocery shopping or cleaning the house.  So unlike me.  I push myself to go to work everyday, smile and carry conversations with my coworkers, by the time I get home I am so emotionally exhausted........I write daily in my journal sometimes it does help relieve the pain.

I am so lost right now.

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Stephanie,

Thank you!!  I am so sorry for your loss.....I go through wide range of emotions..............sometimes several back to back.  Its almost like I am tied on a wheel and spun..............woohoo where did I end up this time??

I have 3 girls, Candance was our middle girl. 

Its so hard sometimes to picture my life with out her being a part of it.  I still wait for her daily phone calls and always look for her many texts I always received throughout the day.  I am very close to all of my girls....its hard to think of what our lives will be like without her.  Last night I had a hard time, I don't know why.....I cried and cried...will I ever stop crying?  Will I ever stop missing her?  the funny thing is, I don't ever want to stop crying and I dont ever want to stop missing her.............does that make sense? 

Sometimes I think my thoughts are too confused.....I don't want to think.

How are your children doing?  It's got to be hard on them too.  Please don't ever feel like you are rambling (I do plenty of that believe me).  I am here and I will be here if you need someone to talk to or vent..............

you will hear plenty of that from me that is forsure!!!  My husband is working alot also, so I pretty much deal with this the best I can.  I used to think I was strong, I don't think so anymore.

See there I go!!!  Rambling!!!

Keep in touch I am here if you need me!

Terrie

Hello Terrie. My name is Ashley.

If you've been paying attention to Texas news, you've probably seen my sister on there. She was actually considered a 'missing person' between July 27 and July 31, but the 31st her body was recovered.

I don't remember your daughter on there, but I'm guilty of just watching the news for updates/news reports of my sister's case. She was living in Humble Texas at the time. I miss her, too, and I've watched my stepmother go through the same emotions I'm reading in your post here. To be blunt, she's pissed and full of hate towards the monster that brutally murdered Amber- rightfully so.

She and I have cried many nights and days together. I couldn't imagine the pain you have felt knowing the monster that murdered Candance is out enjoying life. I expierenced it while Amber was missing and through the three day search for her body and I know that too much more and I'd have gone stark raving mad; You're a strong woman for making it through what you have so far.

I'll pray for you and if you ever need someone to talk to, please message me. I'll be more than happy to talk with you.

Ashley,

My heart goes out to you and your family.  I read the article about your sister, as I read about your sister I thought  you could have been talking about Candance.  How their lives were so similar.........

Candance was the girl everyone knew.  She was raised a Marine bratt so we moved alot.  But everywhere we moved she was the first to meet the neighbors and find all the kids her age.  Candance never knew a stranger, and would give anything she could to help someone in need. 

Candance served 4 years in the Marine Corps where she met her daughters father.

The monster who took Candance has not been caught yet, but I have faith that he will be..........its just a matter of time.  I think right now I need someone to direct my anger at............I am sure I will have some choice words for the sob who took my daughters life.........my goal in life is to see this monster be put to death..........I know it will not bring Candance back..... nothing ever will.  The pain will always be with me.  I just want him to die.  No one who kills deserves to live.  Sorry I just had to vent.

Please keep in touch with me and let me know when the monster who took your sister goes to court.

Thanks for letting me vent.

Terrie

If Candance was anything like Amber, I know she was an amazing person. I am so sorry for your loss, vent any time you need. You deserve, at least, that. I'll continue to pray that the monster who did this to your family is caught so that you can get some sort of closure with this.

Amber's murderer has another araignment on the 20th of this month in Montgomery County. Harris county did have the case and he was already arriagned there, but since she was found in Montgomery Co; they wanted the case and got it. So, they "start over" in Montgomery County on the 20th. I pray that all goes well with that as well as yours. My heart truely goes out to you and your family!

Thank you Cathy!

I am sorry for your loss also.  I hope it does get better....right now I can't see how.  All my thoughts are about Candance and who and why?  Why her?  What did she ever do to deserve this?  She is just alll I can think about.

How can her daughter go through life without her mommy? 

I just cant stop thinking about never seeing her again or talking to her again.  I just miss her so much. 

I just want the evil monster who took her life to get caught, perhaps that will help in my healing process. 

Terrie

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