Hi, My name is Dale. I am new here due to losing my 25 y/o son Cory on March 13, 2012. He passed due to an accidental overdose of a prescription he had just filled that day. Since he was little he suffered from terrible migraines which caused him to vomit so the doctor prescribed him a patch to wear for pain. Unfortunately either the Fentanyl patch was too strong or Cory took something with it that caused him to overdose. We really don't know until the toxicology reports come back.

Cory's mom and I divorced when he was young and I was very happy to have full custody of him. Raising him was a dream. He was always a great kid, very kind, loving and compassionate. He kept all those great qualities as a young adult. We spent so many great years together and I can honestly say I was never disappointed in him because he was such an amazing kid. We had so much fun together and our love for each other was immeasurable.

I am dying inside. My grief is tearing me apart. I prayed my whole life that God would protect him and his two sisters from illness or death and asked God to give everything to me if something had to be given to one of us. I know most parents have probably done the same thing. I don't understand why Cory was taken. I don't understand why a God who gives us the gift of life and love would choose to allow so many suffer from losing their children. Death of a child changes lives and the way survivors look at the world around them. I'm not the same person I was a month ago when I still had my son with me.

 I'm sorry if this post seems to wander or is a bit scattered. I haven't slept in a while. I miss my son so much. I'm so worried about him because I really don't know where he is or how he is doing. Sometimes I feel like I need to go with him to protect him but I know that would hurt so many and in my heart I know he wouldn't want that.

I don't know what lies ahead for me. I want to be here for my loved ones and not be sad all the time but I can't help it. I am sad all the time! Anyhow, Thank you for letting me join this group. It's comforting to know others are there and open to each other. I pray all of you find peace and comfort. Dale

Views: 157

Replies to This Discussion

Dale, I'm so sorry for your loss.  You can feel safe here to talk about your grief.  We all can honestly say we know what you're going through or will be going through these next few years or so.  I won't sugar coat it for you.  It will be a difficult road ahead, many sleepless nights, guilt, anger, disbelief, crying, numbness, you name it.... I think we've gone through it.  Then when things seem to be stablizing, it starts all over again.  Just be kind to yourself.  Be patient with yourself.  There is no one way to grieve.  Just let it happen.  Sending hugs to you.  Take care.

Sorry to hear Dale. Blessing and peace to you.

Im very sorry you're faced with this tragedy.  My son also died as a result of being prescribed too strong of pain meds.  My heart breaks because I know how hard this is and is going to be.  Hugs to you and your family.

 

Thank you for the warm sentiments and for allowing me to join the group. I'm sorry to hear about your losses as well. In time I hope to be able to contribute more to help others if I ever manage to find a way to deal with the loss of my son. I pray everyone here finds peace and comfort.

Does anyone else have a difficult time talking with family and friends since their loss? I am having a hard time connecting with people. I don't know if it's because I get emotional when even the slightest thought of my son crosses my mind or I just really don't care what the topic is... it seems unimportant. I don't want to be rude to those I care about but I just don't have any desire to discuss everyday things. Hopefully, my attitude will change in time I hope. Has anyone else felt this way? Thanks and take care, Dale

Yes I have a hard time talking with friends and family because they just don't understand the depth of my feelings no one will unless they have gone through it themselves. Just feel the way you are feeling it all goes with the greiveing process.. things will even out after awhile but it seems like forever sometimes.  take care and prayers are with you

Hi Dale my name is Debbie I am so sorry for your loss I can feel your pain because I lost my daughter 4 years ago who was 36 she had a seizure which was caused by drinking and drugs..  I know the pain is unbearable I would cry all the time it never gets better it only gets different.. as time passes by it is hard because a parent is not suppose to loose a child it is suppose to be the other way around.. time will heal so you can get back to living.. my prayers are with you..

   

 

 

RSS

Latest Activity

Gary Ruby is now a member of Online Grief Support - A Social Community
Tuesday
Julie is now a member of Online Grief Support - A Social Community
Nov 5
Speed Weasel commented on Speed Weasel's blog post A Return to GriefShare and a Crisis of Identity
"GriefShare is a church based support group. They do have meetings online, but the usual format is a group of people experiencing a loss getting together weekly to watch videos (13 weeks total) about grief and loss. After the video, we talk about the…"
Oct 21
Natasha commented on Speed Weasel's blog post A Return to GriefShare and a Crisis of Identity
"is griefshare a website like this?"
Oct 21
dream moon JO B updated their profile
Oct 16
Morgan Sangrouber is now a member of Online Grief Support - A Social Community
Oct 10
Addie replied to Kali's discussion It was not supposed to be like this in the group Being the Other Woman/Other Man
"Kali I’m so so sorry you are going through this. Grief is hard enough, but going through it secretly, all the while having to continue showing up for your kids, is just brutal. Perhaps your friend was careful to hide your conversations behind…"
Sep 26
Kali added a discussion to the group Being the Other Woman/Other Man
Thumbnail

It was not supposed to be like this

In 2014 I met the most amazing man ever. We were both in our very early 20s and were looking for different things at the time. We ceased communication for roughly 6 months. During which time, he completed basic training and joined the Air Force. By the time we reconnected he was already at his first duty station.. 8 hours away.We decided we wanted to continue our relationship and proceeded to cultivate a deeply emotional connection. Regular calls and video chats, visits while he was home on…See More
Sep 26

© 2024   Created by Ninja.   Powered by

Badges  |  Report an Issue  |  Terms of Service