In short, I'm 26. My mom died when I was 10, lost my dad first to Alzheimers, then to heart attack when I was 17. Lost a grandma, an uncle and a great uncle who was like a grandfather between those years.
It was quiet for a while, went to school, moved to Finland for grad school...then another great uncle (also read grandpa) died... and last December, my aunt. She was the last, like a mother to me. I moved in with her when my father's alzheimers got the best of him (still in high school)and considered her place my home. Around the same time my aunt died, my best friend (also read sister, known since we were two yrs old, inseparable since 12) cut me out of her life for no reason apparent to me. These last two opened the floodgates to everything I suppressed and didn't deal with in my teenage years and it knocked me flat on my face... which ultimately (recently) ruined a promising relationship. The very few family I was still in contact with (one I was even somewhat close with) were nowhere to be found when my aunt died.

So I'm here now, surrendering to any help I can get (after being so reluctant for years) because I've done everything I can on my own and there are parts of me that are broken beyond self-repair.

Hi.

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O my gosh, I am SO sorry. I'm quite bit older, and very sad over losing my mother, brother, and then my Dad getting alzheimer's-allwithin the last 18 months. Reaching out for helps such good move- just keep doing it until you get what you need. I so wish I could do something for you- or just give you a hug.

Thank you. Alzheimer's is rough... maybe even rougher than death. My fathers death was a mixed blessing, he still knew who I was when he died though he believed I was still living with him and forgot occasionally that my mother was dead. Good luck, find a support group specifically for that if you can. I wish I had.

lHi Narri, I am very sorry for all that you have lost, and the pain that you feel.. I too have suffered multiple losses. My mom and sister both committed suicide and two of my sisters were murdered and my dad died right in front of me when I was 15 and I also found my fiancée dead in our home. Its left a trail of emotional wreckage upon my soul that I don't think ill ever recover from, so I understand when you say that you are broken beyond self repair. I don't have any magical words to make it better but I wanted to say that you are not alone. Hugs to you.

I'm Eve, I was an only child born to a very sick mother. She suffered mental and physical probs my entire life. She died of esophageal cancer when I was 35, then my dad died of pancreatic cancer 2 years ago. Since I was my mothers caregiver and had severe anxiety I find myself on my own at 49. Year ago my BF died from liver failure.
I don't know WHAT to say to comfort everyone but I hope there is a heaven. This world is so filled with sorrow.
Prayers for everyone.
Love and hugs
Eve

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