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Permalink Reply by Bern on January 15, 2013 at 9:45pm

Hi Shirlee,

I am angry at God! No shame to say so. I help raise 3 children and birth 3. A total of 6 children. I raised my mother's children (my sister and Brother), A step-daugther, and My own children. I send my self to school to help make a life for all of these children. I would work for miminum wage and give it all up for my child. I did not do drug, party or drink. And this is how I received my blessing. WoW! God let another person took my child's life at the age of 20. I am at a point now that I do not want to be physical with my husband. I feel alone. He does not talk about it and I feel like I am alone. He advoids the subject. He comes home...watch tv and bed...I am falling apart myself.

 

 

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Permalink Reply by Marianne McCue on January 16, 2013 at 11:51am

I'm so sorry for what has happened to your family. My heart is also broken. I only had 2 boys. Now I have only one alive boy(man). I never could emagain how a heart could break but mine did. I have my faith so I'm great full about that. Some one said to me" God never gives you more then you can handle" my response to that was "God did not do this,he is only there for me to lean on". I can only hope you find some pease. I'm still looking, but I need God to cry out to, not in anger but in grief. Again I'm so sorry. It SUCKS

Permalink Reply by Bern on January 16, 2013 at 12:13pm

Marianne, thanks for your thoughts. At least you have one son left. I only had one...I hate the position God has deal us.....Yes, I heard it too; God don't put more on you than you can bear...No sure about that statement, cause I have seen a lot of people loss their minds...from the stress and the ability to face reality.

Permalink Reply by Soleil's Momma on January 17, 2013 at 9:27am

Hang in there please...Your wounds are still very fresh, I believe God tests thoughs he believes in. This may not make sense to others who have not endured this pain but I lost my daughter alittle over a year ago and I know what you're feeling. At times the pain is overwhelming, I still have my good moments and bad moments...when I first lost my daughter I joined a group and I remember how discouraging it was to hear other parents discuss the pain of their losses still strong years later. With many hours of therapy I have come to realize that the pain will NEVER go away...but please find peace in knowing your child is not gone forever :) no matter what faith or denomination you believe in, your child lives on in you and all the good deeds you continue to do. I'm muslim, in my faith we believe that sometimes our children continue to intercede on our behalf and that any good deeds we do we can ask God to accept them as good deeds from our children. I know my daughter was the best gift God ever granted me, I am fortunate and thankful for the almost 18 years I was able to spend with her. Giving birth to her and becoming a mother encouraged me to become a caring, loving person. PLEASE, allow yourself to see the beauty in life and live life the way your son would want you to. I'll leave you with one thought, imagine God allowed your son to 'see' you for one minute...what would you want your son to see and feel. Imagine he couldn't communicate with you but he could only feel your thoughts...what would you want him to feel? I have pondered this many times this last year, I would want my daughter to not feel guilty or sorrow--I'm sure she would already know how much I love her. I would want my daughter to know that she lives on in me, that she taught me to see the beauty in life and how one person with a positive attitude can make a difference in the lives of everyone she touches...what would your son want for you?