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Comment by Laura Krause on July 29, 2011 at 11:20pm

I made it thru another day without my mom. But not without crying three times, screamin once, sitting unresponsive for an hour, not eating anything and missing her more than I could have imagined.

Comment by Laura Krause on July 28, 2011 at 11:29pm

I just lost my mom 11 days ago n now I'm lost. It was very unexpected.  I don't know what to do. My mom n I only lived about 5 miles apart. I talked to her on the phone every day  n was at her house about 4 or 5 times a week. there's no grief counseling in my area at this time. Thats why i looked online. I'm barely keepin it together n thats for my kids sake. I find myself pickin up the phone to call her at least once a day. It hasnt got any better, in fact I think Its gotten harder. I cry every day, several times, usually when Im alone.  sometimes it just hits me" My mom is dead" n it takes  my breath away, literally. I have talked to a couple people I know who have lost a parent n that seems to help for awhile.   My mom was my best friend n Im not sure where to start life without her

Comment by Victoria on July 27, 2011 at 6:30pm

April 2nd 2009 was the last day I shared with my Mother. She was very ill and I was her caregiver for the last few years of her life. She had heart disease as well as many other serious health problems and it was a slow, misreable exsistance for her. I did everything humanly possible to make her as comfortable as she could be. But she suffered with severe pain and periods of dementia, and none it was easy for either of us. But as an only child and having had lost my Father in '97, it was all on me. I did not complain, nor would I chance a thing, because I'd do it all over again for her. She was the best Mother a daughter could ever ask for, and I was proud to have been lucky enough to be born her daughter. I am sufifering now, trying to live life without my Mom. We were the best of friends and now she is gone. And my best friend who went to school with me, passed away suddenly only 6 months after my Mother did. It was a devastating loss and I feel so alone and in such deep pain having loss the 2 closest women in my life so close together. I truly feel lost. I have a loving husband yet I feel alone without my Mother and best friend here with me in this life. I know they are both on the other side and are at peace, but knowing that does not ease my pain. I'm just sad and struggle with depression which is worse since they both passed. I am great at helping others with grief, anxiety, etc, yet I have a hard time following my own words of wisdom.  What's next for me???

Comment by mercy on July 27, 2011 at 11:49am

Anonymous; I feel the same way too. I feel I could have done more to help mom and I cannot help the pain I feel. We had three treatment options, I voted for the one I thought was best and I wonder if it was the wrong option. The guilt and pain is unbearable most days. I just look forward to the day I’ll see her again, all I live for is the day I’ll see mom again. My only joy comes from knowing that with each passing day; I'm closer and closer to seeing mom again.

Comment by Heather Loehr on July 27, 2011 at 11:25am

Sue I lost my mom 2 months ago last Monday. For the first month I felt nothing. And then made me feel guilty that I felt nothing. She lived with me for the last 9 months of her life. She was not only my mom but also my best friend. I also would pretend that it didn't happen that she was just out of town on one of her trips with her sisters. You will find the strength from deep within to keep living. I find my strength by thinking of what my mom would of wanted me to do. Just let yourself feel the feelings whether it's denial, anger or any other feeling. Let yourself feel it and know that everything you are going thru is normal. Someone once told me that it doesn't get any easier  you just learn to cope with it better. *hugs*

Comment by Sue Waxman on July 27, 2011 at 7:16am

My moms been gone 4 weeks. It seems forever since I last held her hand. I am in the numb stage right now. A bit of denial creeps in. I think I am pretending she is still here. I have no idea how to live and keep living. She and I were so close. I pray a lot. What an emptiness.

Comment by Marianne grucza on July 26, 2011 at 11:52pm

Yes Meg I buried my mom 2mondays ago I am kinda going through perimenopause and this too not a good combo. I am a quiet person myself but not this week ,, I miss my mom too,, @~}~~ love u a hug to you , I know there is not to much anybody can really do but I read your post and said a prayer for you

Comment by Meggie Meg on July 26, 2011 at 8:39pm

I lost both my parents in the past 4 years and I am only 32. My mom died a month ago and I am devastated. I am getting so mad at my boyfriend over little things. I have no patience for anyone in public. (God forbid someone cut me off, they will meet the wrath of Meg!) I have no love for the things that used to give me pleasure. I have no energy to do anything fun. I want everyone around yet I want to be alone. I'm a mess. I asked a friend if she thinks I am depressed. She said, "No, honey, you're just grieving." I feel like a 25 lb weight is sitting on my chest. I MISS MY MOM! All I want to do is talk to her and hear her voice, but I cannot do that. I really miss her.

Comment by Karon B. Porter on July 26, 2011 at 10:38am

I find myself at times living in the IF ONLY i stood over my mother's house the day before she passed.  I try not to think about what if's....I know that is something very hard to do.

Comment by Nadine Fox on July 26, 2011 at 10:27am

anonymous- yes i feel that way.....i wish i had visited her more often, i would have seen she wasn't eating enough to keep her strength,  then when she fell, hit her head, she had nothing to fight back with....if only...............

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