Missing mom

I lost my mom to breast cancer last year in April, when I was 16, now I'm in my senior year and so close to graduation that I am really thinking about all the things she is going to miss in my life... She already missed my sisters graduation from university and the birth of her first grandchild.
She won't be there at my graduation, prom, first day at college, getting my first apartment, my first job, my marriage(s), birth of my children(s), none of it...
I have been missing school a lot lately, depressed, feeling empty and there is nothing I can do about it. I just wish she was here.
I was always so close to my mom and we have great memories together, but I don't remember a day when this cancer wasn't taking over her life. She was sick for 6 years and there was nothing I could do but watch her slowly die...

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Permalink Reply by Kisha on May 10, 2016 at 12:50am
So sorry to hear about the pain you are experiencing. I also was very close to my mom. She passed away unexpectantly almost 4 years ago. At the time I was pregnant with my second child. It still bothers me that she never got to meet my son. My daughter will start kindergarten and it breaks my heart that my mom won't be there. I remember my mom always saying she wanted to be there when she goes to kindergarten. I cry often because she is not able to experience her grandchildren. I miss her terribly. You may find it helpful to see a counselor. Depression can come from losing someone. I now battle depression but I have been able to cope with the help of medical intervention. I pray that you are able to experience comfort during this time. Just know what you are feeling is okay.

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