lost without mom

My mom died on Nov 20-2015. I was so much happy with my life, I had everything I ever wanted, she treated me like a princess. she was and will always be my best friend.We had a perfect relationship, we pretty much enjoyed each others company. I never had spent a day without her and now it has been so many days without seeing her or without talking to her. I always prayed to god that my mom lives forever, forever? God only gave me 20 years with her.. She was only 42. Her birthday was in October. I died at the moment I saw her dead.I wasn't even with her when she took her last breath. She was my life, my family truly loves me and are very supportive but it's not same without my mom. I don't fear death anymore, as it's the only thing that will unite me with my beautiful mom. I received many sings and I always feel her presence and that's comforting but it all still feels like a bad dream. Many times I have to force myself to believe her death but I'm still somewhere neglecting the fact that she is no more. 

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Permalink Reply by Megan on January 8, 2016 at 10:31am

I am so sorry, Angel. It is a horrendous thing to lose your mother and especially awful to lose her so young. A home is never the same when the mother gone. My mother has been gone almost 7 months and every day is a challenge. There is not much i can say, only that you aren't alone. xx

Permalink Reply by Diane on January 18, 2016 at 7:40pm
Angel you are not alone, my mothers celebration was the 9th of January, her name was Betty, your mom and mine and others are up there in heaven, my dad is also with my mom, which is wonderful for them.. I don't think I will ever be happy again the way I used to be.. But my mom would want me to be happy and live my life to the fullness. God bless you and comfort you. And everyone else.

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