Insecurity

I lost my mother last year at the age of 42. Im only in my early twenties and I feel like Im too young to have to go through this. I think about her everday even though its been a year it still feels like she just died. I miss her so much, she was the only family that I had. I have really sunk since her death. Im in the beginning of my life and I can't believe I have to live so long without her. I feel like a little 5-year old orphan without parents now that she is dead. It feels like nobody cares about me. How long is this insecure feeling going to last? I know Ill always miss her, but I just want to feel secure again. I guess I have a lot of maturing to do. How long am I going to feel like an orphan? Im grown, I should nt be feeling insecure like this.

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Permalink Reply by anna l. on March 31, 2013 at 12:37am

Hi Julia, Im really sorry your mom is gone.  Life is just so unfair at times.  You say you shouldn't be feeling like this.  Well, with grief there is no right or wrong way to feel.  Feelings just are and you have to cut yourself some slack.  You have suffered a huge lose.  It will take some time before you learn how to live your life with what you have now.  For most people, talking stuff out really helps. You will find this is a wonderful place to do that.  You will find understanding and acceptance in whatever mood you find yourself in at the time.  Im really sorry you need a place like this, but you have found a great one. 

 

Permalink Reply by Julia A. on March 31, 2013 at 3:43pm

Thank you

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