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Comment by Heather Dorogi on November 21, 2011 at 4:37pm

Feeling the pressure of the holidays...I would love to feel happy and "thankful"
but instead I feel miserable, cheated, and sad. This is my first major holiday without my dad and all I want is HIM! I know I should be thankful for the rest of my family, my husband, my job, and so much more...I even know that "I should focus on what I have and not on what I don't have" but there is a hole and absence in my heart that refuses to be filled and I am NOT thankful for that. No amount of thankfulness for the rest of my family makes up for this glaring emptiness that is left. I do not know how to get through these days with any resemblance of sanity. The only thing that keeps me "together" is making sure my mom does not experience my true feelings and feel any sadder than she already does. For her I will keep it all in and push through...but this is NOT going to easy and NOT going to be pretty. I miss my dad more and more with each passing day.   

Comment by Amber Timmons on November 20, 2011 at 5:03pm

I know what you guys mean about nothing seeming to make you feel 'better'. And also about it making you feel like you were five years old again. I felt the same way. I lost my dad when I was 22, and I felt as if I had been orphaned. My dad always took such great care of me and my mom. He would fill our gas tanks up if he noticed it was running low or I'd come out in the morning to go to school and he would've cleaned my car off of any ice/snow. He was always at all my basketball games, horse shows, etc growing up. And I loved having him there. It's so odd for me now, as a mother and wife, to not have him to talk to and share this part of my life with him now as well. I'm tearing up writing this right now and he's been gone for over 4 years. It does get better, but I do still miss him dearly. I've been very fortunate and had never experienced a loss like this before him and my grandma. It confuses me not being able to stop hurting about something. I've always been the type of person to get over things rather quickly (loss of a pet, etc) and had always half-joked that I have issues with attachment. 

Comment by Heather Dorogi on November 20, 2011 at 12:46pm

I am also thankful for this group and for the members that are compassionate enough to share their grief and stories with us/me. While nothings seems to make me feel "better" (and I do not fully believe I will ever feel that way) it helps to know that I am not alone and that others are out there making their way through life after their loss. I am so sorry for each of your losses...my heart goes out to you...

Comment by christianlee on November 20, 2011 at 12:13pm

I'm sorry....Marie.

Comment by marie on November 20, 2011 at 11:55am

Thank you so much for this group. I lost my dad three weeks ago. He had been sick for a long time so we thought we were ready to let him go. But grief has kicked our butts. The emptiness is overwhelming. Just so sad.

Comment by christianlee on November 20, 2011 at 6:36am

Andrea....I feel the same way. I am 39 now and losing dad has left me feeling all alone. This will be our first holidays wo him and I'm dreading the whole festivities. I too am a mom of 3 boys trying to keep happy for them and positive ....when actually everything I do now feels so hard and takes work. Grief can really creep up on you when you least expect it. So you are not Alone in this painful reality of life without a dad.

Comment by Rachel Lynn Schuler on November 20, 2011 at 4:00am

i lost my dad several years ago to cancer....i think about him alot and miss our thanksgivings together....he always made a big meal...dad i love you, and hope u are well in heaven

Comment by Andrea Clark on November 19, 2011 at 6:11pm

I lost my dad on August 3, 2011. I am so grateful for this forum - there are just some things no one can relate to unless they also lost a parent. I still have a very hard time coping, and I don't know when it will get any better. Life has lost all flavor for me. I don't know how to go on from here. I feel guilty for being a terrible wife and mother - I try to keep it together for my family, but it is so hard. Losing my dad makes me feel 5 years old again - I don't know how to face life without my dad. He was always optimistic and would give you reassurance that everything would work out fine. I did not get to talk to him as much as I would like to, but just knowing that he was there was all I needed. I miss him so.

 

Comment by christianlee on October 27, 2011 at 5:41pm

Awesome story dear.

Comment by Brandi Bangs on October 27, 2011 at 4:33pm

Amber, I just got goosebumps!  :)

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