Hi everyone. My names Kelsey. I am 20 years old and I lost my dad 4 months ago on July 4th. He had a stroke while he was sleeping.. and because he would refuse to go to the doctors we didnt even have a clue... ive asked many times... he promised me he'd go once when I called upset about a friend's grandma's death... but he never went... i couldnt eat for a few days.. and i didnt sleep well... in my family, i was never really close to my relatives.. it was always my mom, my dad, my brother, and me. us four. and it worked... and now theres only three of us...
I am a college student. So after my horrible summer of planning my dad's funeral... I had to go back to school. During the summer I had my boyfriend everyday to help me not think about it and move on.. but once I was back in college.. I was alone... you see, before when I had any kind of problem or news i'd called my dad. he was the best at giving advice. and now... without him i'd had to turn to my boyfriend who is in college in another state. its really strained our relationship because i almost expect him to help me fix my issues and help me through this... which he is willing to do but i need to accept that only time can fix this...
i wish i could just be home with my mom and brother... my friendsup here dont really understand and kinda avoid talking to me about it... i feel alone...im a different person... i never used to get so angry so fast...every little thing sets me off and links back to my dad... then i get sad and i think whats the point of living when life is just a buncha disappointments...i just wanna go back home for school, but i love my college and i only have a year more...
what should i do? should i stay and stick it out until then? i know i should... but its been so hard...