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Hello, I've been away for a while, had some writing to get done for my fantasy novel saga. The reason I'm posting today is because I've been missing my father a lot, recently. Though we had a tumultuous relationship most of my life, we established a respectable way of loving one another, and I'm good with that. I just wish he hadn't gone just yet. I could've leaned on him for a place to stay and other things when my husband passed, but dad went before Jeremy, so I wound up with no one to lean on with they passed away, except myself.
My father has only been gone for a little over 3 years, but it already seems like an eternity.
so sorry 2 sea pepple its loss dads moms i miss my dad my mom so muhs i do
Hi, I'm Nikki. I lost my father almost two years ago on 10/28/2022 to drug addiction. Many thoughts have been in my head since then, but the main being that I miss him so much and always saw passed his addiction. He never did drugs around me or my siblings but could tell that his body was declining due to it. The night he passed away, I was the one to find my father slowly falling to the ground and I recall being scared, shocked, worried, and sad. It's hard thinking about this moment as it was the last time, I saw my dad living. I was able to see to say goodbye one last time at the hospital, yet he was no longer living. Even though he didn't respond, I knew he could hear me still. During the last time I saw my father, my mother and older sibling was present. As I laid next to my father grieving, my older siblings said strong words of hatred to my dad that I don't remember or want to remember as I was so angry at them in that moment and continue to be angry with them until this day. Yet in the moment, I remember saying something like "don't say to him" and didn't acknowledge my sibling as I only had a few moments that I would ever see my father again, and it wasn't about them. Despite my dad's struggle with drugs, I was never angry with my dad even though the drugs caused him to decline and become uninvolved with the family. He always showed happiness around me, and sang, and gave me helpful advice on my bad days.
Not everyone is as accepting or understanding of drug addicts as I am, and unfortunately there are members in my family that had a strong hatred towards my dad due to it. Yet, I always stood up for my dad, no matter the choices he made. For the longest time I thought to go to my dad to ask if he could stop, but never did as I knew it became a dependency on his body. I haven't shared this story with anyone besides my family and partner and growing up only a few of closet friends knew about my dad's drug history as it's something very personal, so writing this brings out a bit of relief. I thank my dad for giving me life, and truly giving me life as he adopted me at the age of two and has been my father until my age of 21. I miss you so much Dad.
I miss my Dad every day, he passed away in 2004, I was at his side, no one can even come close to what a loving human being he was. My partner is a very loving guy and he is about as good as it gets so I am blessed (at last after many attempts at trusting the wrong people). My Dad was a great dancer too, he taught me how to dance the waltz, I stood on his feet and learned, I became a dance teacher. He drove me to track and field practice, dance class and that was after his work, he loved my Mom very much and my 2 brothers. We had a nice family until my big brother died suddenly in an accident, I was 17 and had no skills to cope, I tried to help my Mom & Dad but we never really got over that loss. Mom is gone now too, but what remains is their love, they live on in my heart..I try to be a good person and help others, I have made mistakes but forgave myself for not being perfect. Blessings to all.
so sorry on loss stella loss das 9 dad 9 yrs go loss mom 3 mth go im stil num on lozzin mom
evn got acusd of lyin avot her possin evn toldd pppl 2 go 2 funrell hom ask thm
i no iv had few wobls on moms los not sunkk in shes gom wz sam wen dad poss i wz so wz mom
its wot i cnt handl wen frinds stp speekin 2 me or cross syt to avod me is 1 of wost thngs u can do 2 a persn its loss sum 1
i no lozzin mom bean so num thn tv juts set me off a but i no on dad it took 2 yrs on mom i no it cud ta mor thn 2 yrs
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