Why is it when someone you love dies that you replay years worth of memories in your head in a few hours remembering every word, every look, every emotion you felt and witnessed and yet you crave new memories that are no longer possible. You ring their phone just to hear their voicemail kick in and you crave to still speak to them -the phone rings and you think it may be them but it is not possible.

When you visit places you went to with them you expect to turn round and they will be behind you but they are no longer there. When there is a knock at the door you think it is them yet they can't knock. Their belongings fill your home as if they are still here yet they are not. The chair they sat in and the cup they used sit empty and you wish they were filled. When you go shopping you see food you would normally buy them or books or gifts they would like then you remind yourself I can't buy them now they are not here for me to give them.

Why is it every time a tune comes on it is either their favourite tune or a tune associated with a memory you had with them your heart sinks as they can no longer hear it and your memories weigh heavy in your soul Why is it you light candles say prayers and gaze at the stars outside feel the wind and think they may send a message- they may be there -is that feather on the ground a message- but yet their spirit is gone Why is it I post constant pics and words on Facebook and tag them yet they can't read my posts or like them.

I suppose the answer is HOPE & LOVE. Hope that the love that connected you both will allow you still to communicate feel see or hear the person even though they have passed. Hope love and memories are all I have left.

 

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This is beautiful. I can relate to so many of things you mentioned. I will always hold on to Hope and Love. Until we too pass, there is no way to know for sure but I choose to believe they can hear us, see us and still surround us with their presence and love. 

Hi Lisa, thank you so much for your kind words. I'm so sorry about your mum. Keep holding on to hope and love-{{Hugs}}

Thank you Kenna x

That is so beautiful.  It touched my heart.  Please keep writing.  It helps everyone.  Thank you for your kind giving.  

Thank you for all you do too Diana {{{Hugs}}}

So true!   I lost my dad and my best friend a year ago, I still expect to see them. I lost my brother 14 years ago and I still see, hear, and even smell things that remind me of him everyday. We shared a birthday, (not twins-2 yrs apart)  which naturally we celebrated together with a special cake. I celebrated my birthday this past Nov. for the first time in 14 years. It wasn't the same

So I guess what I'm trying to saying is, our loved ones are always with us. Some memories will make us smile and others will make us frown.

Keep Writing your poems they are BEAUTIFUL!!!

Lisa

Thank you so much Lisa x

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