Missing mama every day!

My mom died on May 17, 2017 and like a lot of other grieving daughters, my mom was more than just a mom, she was the best friend I could ever have. I miss her so much, nothing can replace her. I can't wait to see her again! I miss hearing her voice, but at least I videotaped her on occasion so I play those recordings a lot

I had her for 47 years which may seem like a lot of time, but definitely not enough. The last three years were hard for her and me because I was her sole caregiver and when she had her health she always said she did not want to be a burden. It was very hard, I was depressed because seeing her health deteriorate and having to work a full-time job took it's toll on me. I was burned out and so exhausted.

I think about all of the mistakes I made in the caregiving process, but I'd rather she live with me than in a nursing home.

I'm glad there are forums like this and I'm surprised there are so few grief support groups in my area that I can attend in person.

 

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Permalink Reply by Dennis C. on June 23, 2017 at 11:47am
Joy

I am very sorry for your loss.

I believe that one day we will be reunited with our loved ones. Until then I rely on that belief to keep me looking forward and hopeful. This certainly doesn't take our pain away, but it does keep us focused on the good things to come.

I noticed that you to "can't wait to see her again." Use your belief in thatb reunion as a hope to cling to when your pain is extreme. It will help.

I wish that there was more that I could do to help you, but know that I am thinking about you and available to help if I can.
Permalink Reply by Joy on June 23, 2017 at 11:57am

Thanks for the kind words Dennis. My belief in God and life after this one ends is what keeps me going.

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