Will I ever be able to stop grieving?

I lost my best friend to prostate cancer almost 5 years ago. He was 25. I miss him more and more every day, especially the closer it gets to the anniversary of his death. I go through phases of feeling ok and not missing him too much. There are even times when I can go a week without thinking about him. But for the past month, I've been thinking about him every day. I have even found myself dreaming about him and then I wake up reaching for him. I miss him so much it hurts. Will I always grieve like this, or will I one day be able to think about him without wanting to break down?

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Permalink Reply by MarieSte on March 22, 2015 at 6:27am

Heather, I'm truly sorry. The reality is that you will grieve forever. You will not "get over" the loss of your loved one; you will learn to live with it. You will heal and you will rebuild yourself around the loss you have suffered. You will be whole again, but you will never be the same. Nor should you be the same, nor would you want to be. You will get through it with baby steps at your own pace. Everyone's journey is unique and only you can decide what's right for you and which path to take. By using this site you will know you are not alone. Others can relate to your loss. I have been able to move forward with baby steps by expressing my grief through writing and also with the knowledge that my boyfriends spirit and love will be with me forever. He has sent me signs that he now sees through my eyes and he has put thoughts in my head. He helps me write my poems as I never wrote before his death. It is still hard I still miss him so much but somehow I have learned to live with the pain.  Bless you on your journey.

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