The horror of a bad illness

I miss my mama, who died in June, in a big way, but what haunts me is her horrible illness, due to Parkinsons.  I am haunted that I couldn't help her in any way.  God knows I wanted to.  I cry for her death, but I really cry for the horror of her illness.  I am so devastated that I couldn't help her.

JW

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Permalink Reply by Casey on October 2, 2014 at 12:23am

I think I understand. My mother died from lung cancer, she never smoked. She was only 56. The horror of her illness is forever gut wrenching to me.

Permalink Reply by Julie W on October 5, 2014 at 11:03pm

Thank you for understanding.  Very sorry to hear what you went through with your mother!

Permalink Reply by dream moon JO B on October 5, 2014 at 4:49pm

so sorry jullie

my dad had copd but post mortm wz full of bull shit u cud say 3 difrtn reprts so on

it kils me his not hear any mre

iv lost a lot of faly 2 big c i hav i can not say it coz it mks me feal sic word it dose i feal bad coz i cud not stop thm geting it or any ilness i do

i lost my anti in july 2014 i feal s o bad coz  cud not vist her in her in hosptl but wn she wnt hom 2 die i got a a horbl shok 2 sea her on her death bed i did

wen dr cm 2 sea her he told her dorter l it cud be days or wks she died 2 days latr she had a stroke big c on top

her oldst dorter had a srroke wish has lft her veg btle so on i feal bad abot it voz im partly 3 blame for ti coz i did not get her meds 2 er strate away coz i  misset lst bus it wnt 2 her hme i did 

her sons cus not be bthrd 2 go get her meds iv saed sorry non stp coz of it i hpe 1 day thy can fogiv me i no i wil undstand if thy cant

sorry if im ranting 2 mush

Permalink Reply by Julie W on October 5, 2014 at 11:05pm

Very sorry to hear about your experiences.  I wish you well and take good care of yourself.

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