So alone.

I've been feeling worse. It's been over two weeks. Yesterday all I did was cry. I do not have anyone of my own. My brother is the only one left and he always winds up making me feel bad. No one in his family, his wife, my niece or his Mother In Law has reached out to me since the funeral. I feel abandoned. I did not expect them to be my new family but I thought they would care. Offer to help in some way. Have me over...they live down the street. It hurts. I feel like they are mad at me. Like I dîd something wrong. I want to tell someone about it. But there îs no ône to tell.

I feel like I want someone to take care of me. I knôw that sounds childish but I guess that's what my Mom would do. She'd hold me. No one is here just to hold me as I cry. I feel so alone, and childish for expecting such things. Like ît's week.

I went to a therapy group but even thére no one lets me get it out. It's all about skill building and all I want is someone to comfort me. Someone to talk to as long as I want. I want my Mom.

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Permalink Reply by Briar21 on February 6, 2016 at 10:02pm

Lots of virtual hugs!

Maybe see about finding a different therapy group to see if it is a better fit. The crying and everything else is normal. I have support of my family and I still feel so alone. I actually got out one of my Mom's stuffed bunnies (my sister made it for her) and sat down and hugged it a while. Just needed the extra hug. Do you have anything around you that you can hug, even a pillow?

Hugs again!

Permalink Reply by Sue Sedia on February 7, 2016 at 12:49am

Thanks Briar,

I do hug my pets a lot lately. lol It just would be nice to get that hug back. I'll try something of my Mom's maybe that'll help. thanks.

Permalink Reply by Rebecca Chuma on February 11, 2016 at 8:13pm
Hi sue.
I know what you mean when you say you feel lonely but please take some form of solace in knowing that you're not alone. i lost my mom this summer and have been struggling with my own loneliness but it's helped me to read others stories here , to know these feelings are felt by so many others. I want you to know that as I am writing this I am sending you a all the good vibes I can. If you ever want to just put it all down, I will listen or read whatever you need to be heard. I hope you find some small peace in this.
Permalink Reply by Sue Sedia on February 15, 2016 at 7:20am

Thank you Rebecca, it does help. :)

Permalink Reply by Melinda Dean on February 11, 2016 at 10:01pm

I understand what you are going through.  I lost my husband about a month ago. He was estranged from his family but when he was ill I thought his family would be there for him and be supportive of me.  I was so wrong to think that they would help us.  They live very close by as well but there has been nothing from them.  So I understand what you are going through.  Sorry for your loss.

Permalink Reply by Sue Sedia on February 15, 2016 at 7:19am

Thank you. I'm sorry for your loss. That's so sad that they could not let go of their differences even after he was sick. It does hurt. I don't understand it.

Permalink Reply by Dennis C. on February 12, 2016 at 6:53am
Sue,

The link below takes you to an article that talks about grieving. There are also other articles there that discuss death itself.

https://www.jw.org/finder?locale=en&docid=2016086&prefer=la...

I hope the information at least helps a little bit .

I am so sorry for your pain and suffering.
Permalink Reply by Sue Sedia on February 15, 2016 at 7:14am

Thank you Dennis.

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