This is Margie again. I'm inviting any friends out there that have had losses with people and have been estranged from them for a long time.
I am doing better with the loss of my sister, but I get these waves of anger, sadness and loneliness that overcome me.
I had to stay away from my family of origin because of the abuse and rejection I would receive constantly.
I remember when we were younger in grammar school this sister Claire did not have many friends and I once in my life had a good friend. I would invite Claire to go bike riding with us because I felt bad for her that she would stay home alone.
That changed and Claire had all the friends and I didn't, the story goes on from there, not a great one. I want to find peace around this, I know it will take time.
I hope their are others in the same situation or others who would to offer some hope.
Margie