I lost my mama to cancer after her 10 month battle with Vulvar Cancer and I had to witness some very horrific days. She suffered so much and I tried to be there with her as much as I could but she did not survive this monster and passed away.my dad was also battening lung disease and he passed away 7 weeks later. I am 32 and no siblings and no family of my own.some days I feel lost and I don't know if I can carry on...

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Dear Alin,

Thank you for taking the time and sharing your story with me. Losing a loved one is never easy no matter when or how it happens, but sometimes in different circumstances it is much harder to deal with the loss... I was the only child and had a very close bond with my mom. Sometimes when I was younger I was afraid that someday it may cause me trouble... and when she fell ill last year and was diagnosed with cancer I could feel that moment closer in time... Even though I believe that our destinies have been picked for us way before we were born but I believe we play a role in it one way or the other. Unfortunately my mom was a victim of medical negligence and medical malpractice. She suffered since the day she was diagnosed.

My parents were lovers and when my mom passed away even though my dad was already sick buy he couldn't bare to live a day without her and seven weeks later he passed away. I try to think that they are free from any pain and suffering but I have been so sad and overwhelmed with everything that I have been left with, all the responsibility not having them by my side anymore. I have good friends but that loneliness that I feel within seems to be irreplaceable.  

Some days I don't even have the urge to get up and move on... In the last couple of months before my mom passed away she was very sick and things that were happening in her body and the pain she was going through was beyond human capacity and witnessed all of that because I was with her 24/7, and now all those things have come back to hunt me... there are times when I really want to talk to them and I do but the fact that there is no answer makes me want to die thinking that I will never again hear their voice...

Thank you once again for writing me I hope by sharing my feelings with those who have gone through similar experiences will eventually help me to cope with this.

All the best to you,

Yasmin

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