Hey, I'm Paige and I have just joined this website, so just wanted to introduce myself quick.

 

But my boyfriend/best friend was in the army and deployed to Afghanistan for six months. He had two weeks left of his deployment when he was killed by an IED (improvised explosive device). He would be coming home tomorrow. I am so lost and mostly angry about this whole situation because this should not have happened to a 20 year old boy. It also just does not feel real at all and I can't wrap my mind around it. I haven't met anyone who has ever been in this situation which also makes it very hard because I have an overwhelming amount of feelings and no one really understands any of them. I'm only 17 years old, and I chose my college for next year based on my boyfriend because he was going to be stationed in Colorado, so I picked a college next to his post. So now everything in my life is just screwed up and gone. It makes no sense.

 

I also feel that deaths of deployed soldier are a lot harder to comprehend than deaths of people who have been around. I have not seen my boyfriend in 6 months so I'm used to not seeing him. So the fact that he is truly gone forever just won't stick in my brain.

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Oh my God..I am so sorry for your loss. My wonderful Mom died the past Monday. She was my everything. I don't know how we go on without sombody who was our love and world. No a 2o year old young man should NOT have gone to war and died. My mothers brother Freddy died at 21 in WWII. I honor him with his pictures in my home even though I never met him. I always felt he was so cheated and that I was not going to forget his sacrafice by his pictures being locked away in a box. You shared a love together. Hold onto that. I have no idea how to get out of bed today. Still in my pajamas. It is July 4th weekend. Lots of BBQ's and fireworks going on all around me. Do you have a close family????? Sue

I am sorry, Paige.  It seems everybody's loss generates the same feelings, but then everybody's loss can be so different.  I can't begin to imagine how you feel when you haven't seen someone in 6 months.  So very sorry.

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